White knight looking for his black queen

Divorced 45 yr old white man, 6′1, 220lbs, carry my weight well. I’m hoping to meet and get to know a lovely ebony lady. I’ve never dated outside my race but I find the idea very appealing and exciting. I’m not looking for a booty call. I genuinely want to get to know someone and [...]
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Lana:
She has recently accused me of being abusive towards her (I try to treat her with respect), and she calls me a liar very often.
(7 January 2017)

Lana:
Also, my stepmother yells at me very often.
(7 January 2017)

Lana:
Wasn't very bad, but I don't want it to get to an unbearable point.
(7 January 2017)

Lana:
The other day, we got into a fight that was worse than normal, and he pushed me.
(7 January 2017)

Lana:
He got remarried, and my stepmother and I get in lots of fights, and he always sides with her.
(7 January 2017)

Lana:
My dad was an alcoholic and used to hit my mom and I, but it never left any real marks, like bruises or scratches.
(7 January 2017)

Tia:
Is it weird that I'm 19 I don't get nervous of women older than me or that aren't hot or cute but if they are I'm nervous of 14-17 also?
(7 January 2017)

Tia:
But I'm not interested in girls out of my age group.
(7 January 2017)

Tia:
Also younger girls are more shy so I also feel more shy even though these girls are in high school.
(7 January 2017)

Tia:
I don't know why but it's because some of them are hot or cute.
(7 January 2017)